Seems pretty solid in definition but in reality a very shaky and sensitive ground for most, if most were to be honest. Yesterday after being asked a series of questions that first started out as an easy going inquisitive conversation between two single women, turned out in the end to be a angry judgmental one because as they put it I had too much confidence. I asked... is that even possible? NO, Is confidence a bad thing? NO. That is if it's real. I assure you my confidence is real, but not in self...
Here's the thing I'm confidant in lots of areas of my life but there are also things from day to day I'm very unsure of when it comes to life, myself, raising my children and even down to cooking and cleaning. However the source of confidence I do have and maintain is in the God I serve and it's only because of that I'm am able to make it. If it were left up to me, most days I'd never leave my home. I'd take one look in the mirror and say oh no... can't go anywhere looking like this and honesty it's how i feel each day before, spending my one on one time alone with the Lord each day. So the confidence she seen wasn't me, it's the Lord showing through me.
There was a time in my life when material things meant more to me than I meant to myself. The passion I put into, looking the part, playing the part, driving the part, dating the part, fake smiling the part of a happy women was tons of work. A majority of the time, the requirement were so overwhelming I still found myself, hiding behind locked doors and away from those I thought at the time important , just to get a breather. I dare not allow them to see I had a weakness and was a FAKE. I felt like those people could make or break me and truth be told because of the faith and confidence level was, they very well could have broken me because I had no real confidence in myself let along The Lord.
So here I am many years later, have so much less material wise, but stand before you one of the most truly confidant women or individuals I know. My joy is real, my life is amazing, my children are awesome, my businesses are doing very well, I'm surrounded by people who truly love and care for me, Everywhere I go I have favor and I'm not kidding and anything I set out to do I do very well,if i put my heart and mind to it but it's not me... I can't take credit for any of it, It's all God.
Me,alone = Not so confidant
Me in Christ = unstoppable, undeniable, joyful, beautiful, loving, caring, wise, fun, exciting, unselfish, highly favored and so much more.
WOW, so perhaps looking at it that way, one who is on the same shaky fake foundation I once stood on, I would have way to much confidence. Is that even possible?
The word of God says this about confidance:
And will keep your foot from being caught."
"In the fear of the LORD there is strong confidence,
And His children will have a place of refuge."
"For we are the circumcision, who worship God in the Spirit,
rejoice in Christ Jesus, and have no confidence in the flesh,
though I also might have confidence in the flesh.
If anyone else thinks he may have confidence in the flesh, I more so:"
"Now this is the confidence that we have in Him,
that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us."
1 John 5:14
"Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us,
we have confidence toward God."
1 John 3:21
"Oh, the joys of those who trust the Lord,
who have no confidence in the proud or in those who worship idols."
Those is where I stand in the confidence and my confidence is int he Lord God.